I just want to give you an update. Since our session, I changed more than 50 early childhood memories and I am not stopping. I already noticed a small shift in my need to control everything. I am more like: I'll see what happens and I can always do this again or go back and fix it... INSTEAD OF: I need to know everything and do everything right the first time or something bad will happen or I'll miss something and it won’t work.
Also, I am starting to remember and appreciate good things that my parents did for me, I think they were overshadowed by the negative ones.
I did the stepping stone method on the biggest injustice memory I had (which I had already changed before to a new positive memory but still felt that injustice occurred.) I can say now that justice has been done and it feels great, it worked like a charm.
I also wrote a letter to my mother (due justice) and it felt great to get this off my chest, then I imagined her reading it, saying she was sorry and asking if she can make it up to me. We burnt the letter together and she said: Let's rewrite our story. It took me a lot of willpower to start writing it because it felt like it was real and knew it was going to upset my mom.
Also today I was in my backyard and saw a spider and thought: awwww so cute, and I picked it up and liked it. It was ticklish just like in my new fake memory.
Finally, I want to say that I have been chewing the inside of my mouth for 25 years and I changed the reference for it and replaced all the times were I did this coping skill with Reading a book, and I haven’t chewed the inside of my mouth for almost two weeks, I have never been able to last more than 24 hours with willpower.
I am amazed at the results I am getting and can’t wait to see what’s next.
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